Aaaah, coffee break...........

Wait, I don't normally drink coffee unless it's a special day and I want to look cool by ordering something (usually the wrong thing by the way) at Starbucks.......... oh well, I've always wanted to be a 'coffee break' person, always wanted to be one of those moms that sat down to her 'breakfast table' (you know, the ones that are at the bay window overlooking your perfect garden in your beautiful kitchen, as opposed to only having one dining table (oh and also not having the bay window, garden, or beautiful kitchen).......... hmmm, where was I...... oh yeah, I always wanted to sit down w/ my coffee....... my kids would be perfectly behaving, playing/reading/practicing the violin........ clean house, laundry caught up, and my husband calling to see how his beautiful wife's glorious day was going............ WAKE UP!!!!!!!!

Instead, it usually looked like this: Jax hanging at my legs, toy in one hand and any type of food item in the other, Chloe begging me to get her violin out even though we have yet to find an instructor and mommy's ears can't handle the screech of the non-instructed strings, phone ringing (ANOTHER doctor's bill????), cat scratching at the door, I'm in the process of laundry, dishes, and two cakes that need to be done in an hour, and me wondering why I always say "I don't drink soda" even though at this very moment, I could use a very LARGE Coca-Cola, not the chocolatey coffee drink I order when I do order coffee....... aaaaaaaah yes, the chaos I loved to call my life........ but now, I miss that chaos; would give anything to hear my kids whining about the fact that I won't let them bring the pool inside and fill it w/ sand for them...... or whining about anything for that matter....... I'd give anything to be so stressed that I stand in front of the bathroom door for 30 seconds holding it w/ all my strength to keep the kids out so I could have half a minute of breathing time, ha! But I loved it! I woke up every morning for it.

BUT even that life has changed a bit.......... now I have fallen into a season of being a Working Mom....... something I told myself (and my husband!) I would never be. Who knew that decorating cakes from home, making and selling hair bows, watching other kids twice a week, and the various other jobs that I did would not produce enough of an income to keep me home?? What? ...... oh, you mean you have to charge customers in order to make money??? Oooops! So yes, life changes, things happen, and alas, I am back at work FOR THE TIME BEING!!!!!! (everyone understood that correctly, right?!) Believe it or not, it hurts my dear husband almost as much as it does me...... but God has an awesome plan for us and I know He will work all of this out in HIS time!

So I work at a pharmacy, get to listen to cranky customers who ABSOLUTELY NEED their pain meds, etc., and I get to call insurance companies all day and work on claims, and I get to stress about getting my 'drug' order in on time every evening and pray everything comes in correctly............... let me tell you, this job is great (I say this w/ a full-fledged-fake-smile). I also get to cry every morning that I drop my kids off at 'school' (I used to hate when I heard people call daycare that) and wish every minute of every hour that I'm sitting at this job that I could walk out, cross the street, get my kids, and head home, ha! Ooooooooh wait, I just broke a rule I promised my therapist (God) I would try to stop: griping about working....... okay, so now I have to list at least three positives about my going back to work: 1) $$$.... 2) going to the bathroom by myself.... 3) thanks to daycare (whoa, did I just say that?), Chloe is now ready for and excited about kindergarten... she used to freak out at the K-word, but now she is ready! .......... okay, that's out of the way.

So now that I just realized this post has become a novel (a boring one at that), I will QUICKLY tell you about what's going on w/ the rest of our lives............ Derrick resigned the youth pastor position at the little country church in January, and we now attend a church that we LOVE LOVE in Muskogee, and Derrick was just asked to be the assistant youth pastor (not a paying job yet, but we're working our way up!), the church is also going to pay for him to take the classes and be ordained through the Assemblies of God....... we are also in the process of starting an inter-denominational youth ministry here in Gore, Saturday nights, an on-fire youth service for this community of teens that NEED HELP BAD....... God is opening doors left and right for this........... and we are totally and completely excited and ecstatic about what God is doing in our lives right now. He has us exactly where HE wants us to be right now (yes, even my job), and for that I am thankful. Oh, and I'm also VERY thankful that I am taking next Friday off and going to Branson for the weekend w/ my family........ WAHOOOOOOO! Okay, so now that I've put all of you readers (if there are any) to sleep (you're welcome!), I will stop this post.......... did it make any sense??? Probably not, but do I ever make sense? If you know me, NO!

Have a good one......... oh, and get ready for some posts buddy, b/c sometimes, I have a lot of time to dawdle here at the ol' drugstore! Love and prayers!